Losing the Love - The Pain (Part- 1)

We all are looking for love in our lives. The love may vary from person to person. Some might be looking for mother’s love, some for brother's, a few may be looking for social acceptance and love. And what most of the people are looking for those lovers whom they can say “I LOVE YOU”. We can certainly say it to every one, but its a long topic, so leave it for another time. So saying it more clearly we found most of us are looking for a good love and life partner. The struggle begins quite early in our life like the day when we see the first love scene in a movie, or the day we listen a beautiful romantic song or we listen to our elders, including father and uncles, chattering about actresses and girls in the colony we live. Seems funny though but our quest just starts from there.


So as we are looking for a true lover, the time passes on and on, and the urge and excitement increases all the way. We began too see each coming lady/boy as may be the “I LOVE YOU” one. Lets just pass the complete process and jump to stage where we had that “I LOVE YOU” partner.

Life becomes so beautiful and continues to be. We find pleasure and happiness in whole life. Life seems to be complete and filled. Trees began to give unseasonal fruits for you. You talk and make love with your partner. Start thinking how beautiful would be the future. And the list goes on an on.

But after few years, when you find yourself fixed & in a routine of each other. We become more like ordinary people to each other. We start yelling and screaming at each other most of the time. If one is giving suggestion the other thinks he/she is weak and need assistance so he/she presumes that this is pathetic. There communication time becomes very small and formal too. They stop talking crazy future ideas for life. Life seems dumb to them. And then the above paragraph changes like next paragraph.

Life becomes so awful and continues to be. We find disturbance and confusion in our whole life. Life seems wrecked and hallow. Trees won’t even give the seasonal fruits to you, if you lucky enough to get the you may not like the taste. You avoid and hate your partner. Start wondering how rest of future would be. And the list goes on and on.

We all are mostly victim of this situation. Differences keep on growing and we start loosing our loved ones. This process grows within us at start like a disease but starts increasing and reaching to a deadly loss of a loved one. No one would realize it until we loss the control of situation. Yes i realized it at the same situation as well.

Now we feel shallow and broken. We know we have lost someone crucial. We weep, cry, scream and yell but now you only have the voice but there isn’t any pitch that would carry it to my loved one. But now what!!! Nothing can be done now.
Finally, we sit in a quite place and raise few questions to ourselves: why have i fallen for this love search? Why i have seen the love story so early in my life? Why have listened to that romantic song in my childhood? Why i had listened to the talks of father and uncles about lovely women? Why all that happened?

I ask: “Was that a trap to set me up for the pain?”
I reply: Yes it might be.

(The pain continues...)

Focusing on the Dream

When I entered the room every one was stuck to the TV. I said
“Assalam O Alaikum” and moved to the fridge, as my reason to
enter the room was to drink some water. I took the bottle from fridge
& glass and set by my mother. I filled the glass & saw towards the
TV. The scene was some thing like that:


A lady with her beautiful daughter ran into a hospital towards the
emergency ward, where other family members were waiting. She
had a little scene there (I’m skipping extra talking part so I could get
to the point). She asked her mom to look after her daughter for a
little, I’ll be back in an hour and she walked towards the exiting
door. For a couple of seconds her daughter remain calm in the room
but suddenly, just like a lost sparrow at eve, she wandered around
and when couldn’t see her mom. She get out of her grandma’s grip
and ran outside. Her grand mother ran after her to stop her & was
yelling “Stop! Stop! ”.But the little girl moved out of the room &
was yelling like her grandma, but instead, “Mama! Mama! ”. She
crossed unknown persons, ran into some while running. She could
have been lost there, could hurt herself or something like bad could
happen. She didn’t consider that she could be lost. What if she had
to come back to her family back there? She didn’t think any of these
problems but continued running.


This was the Scene I saw & started thinking that what If we all
become like this little angel? What if we all have that clear & clean
vision? What if we all get that much strong approach & vision?

We all must be like her in chasing our dreams, searching for the best
& better. We must also not look behind what we are leaving behind
and just follow/Chase our dream. We must rid of the idea that we
might lost & only seize each & every opportunity as the Sole Chance. The only thing
under our consideration should be our dream. Yes there will be hurdles.
Yes there will be voices & forces from past, asking you to stick to them.
But you must be strong enough to let all that behind.

Ouch!!!! (My mother elbowed me) & said “Aren’t you gonna drink
water? I need glass”.

Here I’m back in reality again, drinking water…….

Stepping through the Door

It was a long day, i get inside my bed to sleep. From many days I was thinking of writing but couldn't write. Actually the problem was

I couldn't decide what to write I had no topic in mind. But today i picked up the pen & my book to write something. I found an empty

Page inside my book. Then i thought from where this page came from, here is the story:

I am doing graduation. Teachers give many assignments for home work but i rarely do the work. I just take assignment

from any fellow and make a copy of it, or some time i convince anyone to write my assignment for me (thanks to everyone). It was Monday, sir

gave the assignment & said it shall be submitted next Monday. Time passed on & comes the Monday. Everyone was copying, arranging,

collecting the assignment and I was as relax as i could be. Sir didn't came that day & left a message that submit it tomorrow. I asked

one of my friend to give me his assignment I'll copy it & bring it tomorrow, i don't know why did I even thought of it, but yet i did.

In the eve, it was a burden on me to write 4 to 5 pages I asked my sister to copy paste the assignment & i got busy in my works. I returned

after some tie she was still writing & that was nearly end. I stood there. She said it is completed there is one page left free what shall

i do of it? (As she knew i was very greedy in my page usage approach)

I said leave it but she insisted & tore off the page by saying:

"No, it would be worthy" and placed it my book.

Yes, this is the page in my hand now. This all happened nearly 10 days ago. I opened my book today and found that page & I'm using it

to write my first thought. Not only this page showed his worth but also gave me the first topic & opened the door for me. What i was actually

looking for few months that what shall i write, this single page held my hand & helped me jump the hurdle I was afraid of. So the bottom line

is things show there worth out & help you too.

This is my first Article, I'm really happy to write it at last. I'll be writing and sharing such thoughts in the near future.

Assalam O Alikum, I’m Muhammad Talha from Bahawalpur, Pakistan. This is my blog regarding my articles.

What this blog will cover?

I’ll share with you on this blog my thoughts about my life & interesting phenomena I go through my life, and various other creative writing of mine. I think sharing of knowledge will increase mine too.

My theory?

I think of “Pen” as the soul ruler of the world & world as a Book. You write every page of your life with your Pen & create your own world. It now depends on you what you choose to write on your book. So the significance of Pen can’t be denied in your world. I took it as a point & started writing. And by this platform I’ll share my world with you.

Do share your thoughts, suggestions & ideas with me.