We all are looking for love in our lives. The love may vary from person to person. Some might be looking for mother’s love, some for brother's, a few may be looking for social acceptance and love. And what most of the people are looking for those lovers whom they can say “I LOVE YOU”. We can certainly say it to every one, but its a long topic, so leave it for another time. So saying it more clearly we found most of us are looking for a good love and life partner. The struggle begins quite early in our life like the day when we see the first love scene in a movie, or the day we listen a beautiful romantic song or we listen to our elders, including father and uncles, chattering about actresses and girls in the colony we live. Seems funny though but our quest just starts from there.
So as we are looking for a true lover, the time passes on and on, and the urge and excitement increases all the way. We began too see each coming lady/boy as may be the “I LOVE YOU” one. Lets just pass the complete process and jump to stage where we had that “I LOVE YOU” partner.
Life becomes so beautiful and continues to be. We find pleasure and happiness in whole life. Life seems to be complete and filled. Trees began to give unseasonal fruits for you. You talk and make love with your partner. Start thinking how beautiful would be the future. And the list goes on an on.
But after few years, when you find yourself fixed & in a routine of each other. We become more like ordinary people to each other. We start yelling and screaming at each other most of the time. If one is giving suggestion the other thinks he/she is weak and need assistance so he/she presumes that this is pathetic. There communication time becomes very small and formal too. They stop talking crazy future ideas for life. Life seems dumb to them. And then the above paragraph changes like next paragraph.
Life becomes so awful and continues to be. We find disturbance and confusion in our whole life. Life seems wrecked and hallow. Trees won’t even give the seasonal fruits to you, if you lucky enough to get the you may not like the taste. You avoid and hate your partner. Start wondering how rest of future would be. And the list goes on and on.
We all are mostly victim of this situation. Differences keep on growing and we start loosing our loved ones. This process grows within us at start like a disease but starts increasing and reaching to a deadly loss of a loved one. No one would realize it until we loss the control of situation. Yes i realized it at the same situation as well.
Now we feel shallow and broken. We know we have lost someone crucial. We weep, cry, scream and yell but now you only have the voice but there isn’t any pitch that would carry it to my loved one. But now what!!! Nothing can be done now.
Finally, we sit in a quite place and raise few questions to ourselves: why have i fallen for this love search? Why i have seen the love story so early in my life? Why have listened to that romantic song in my childhood? Why i had listened to the talks of father and uncles about lovely women? Why all that happened?
I ask: “Was that a trap to set me up for the pain?”
I reply: Yes it might be.
(The pain continues...)
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